As most of you know, I went to school to be a midwife and am in the process of completing my paperwork to take my licensing exam this summer. I apprenticed with an amazing midwife for 2 1/2 years and learned so much! I LOVE home birth, I just love birth in general and always left a birth feeling like I had the best job in the world. I mean really how many people get to see a miracle happen at work?!?
Naturally I always thought that when I got pregnant I would have my babies at home, it never really crossed my mind to do anything else. I have never been in the hospital and unless I needed emergency care never want to. I have nothing against Doctors, just don't feel there is a need for one in a NORMAL birth. Because believe me I have done some not so normal birth and they left me very grateful for Doctor's and there skills! So back to my birthing dream...once I got married and moved to NY and realized that home birth was a slim chance there due to the laws being different and hearing that my husband was not totally comfortable with it I settled into the idea that I would have a hospital birth with a midwife. Now, once I got pregnant it all hit me a little harder when I started realizing I could not have my dream. Then we moved to TX and I decided to use a local Dr who is an amazing Christian man and Jeremy and I were both very happy and at peace with our decision. Last week Jeremy started asking me about home birth options and I could tell he was just feeling things out. I tried to contain my excitement and again gave my desire over to God. Well after lots of conversation and talking things out we decided to have a home birth! Now I know this is all not for sure, but I am confident that God 's plan will prevail whatever that may be and we both feel that is to be at home. At 7 1/2 months we are changing gears and both thrilled with the change!
I am elated! I have experienced again God giving me the desires of my heart. I had stopped even praying for God to change Jeremy's mind, I was really that at peace with things. I also had to struggle with what others might say, knowing I am a midwifery education and having a hospital birth and then also now struggling with peoples comments when they find out I am having a home birth. But it is so clear to me that this is God's plan and that He set all this into place because it had nothing to do with me! So now to order our birth kit, buy the needed supplies and wait for the appointed day she will arrive! If you think of it you could pray for me, that I would not battle fear of what could happen. I struggled with that even when we were planning to have a hospital birth. I know God is in control and I want to be able to rest fully in that! Ok, this green momma is off to order my cloth diapers! Wish me luck! =)
What a neat post! Although I love my doctor and really love my epidural... I completely respect what you do and your passion for home birth. You and your husband are clearly educated on it all, and knowing you've had excellent prenatal care I think it's an awesome choice. This is just a true testimant to giving it over to God and He will give you the desires of your heart.
ReplyDeleteI will certainly be praying for you and all your concerns. Can't wait to hear more!
So excited for you! I understand the whole fear thing, but know you'll do great!
ReplyDeleteOk, first of all, cloth diapers? You go girl!! Did your mom use those growing up? Mine did...I remember barely being tall enough to reach the clothes line and hanging out a couple baskets full of diapers...haha :) what memories!
ReplyDeleteAnd that is so neat to see how God is working! A home birth sounds absolutely amazing :) And I totally understanding about people making comments against it...I'm not even pregnant but when I talk to the other nurses I work with and mention home birth they are so completely against it. Of course we work with high risk pregnancies where they NEED to be in the hospital. They don't have normal births...Anyway, but yes. They can't believe I'd even think about such a thing b/c I'm "educated" and "know better" :) I find it kind of funny....oh well. I'll cross the bridge when I come to it. Praying for a fabulous rest of your pregnancy! You are so close!
Yay! Hannah how exciting that must be for you! How awesome to see God move/work in that situation! I cant wait to read your birth story here in only another couple months!
ReplyDeleteSo excited for you! It will be wonderful! I may be brave enough to go the cloth diaper route when #4 come along! :)
ReplyDeleteGood look on the home birth - you will be so blessed. And cloth diapers? Im obsessed - did I really just say that?
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