Thursday, August 27, 2009

The Seasons of life is something that has been on my mind often these days. Maybe its because I have a 4 month old baby who is blowing through the newborn season, maybe its because I am entering a season of parenting that I feel so inadequate to enter, maybe its because our lease in our apartment is up soon so we are seeking what the next season will be, maybe its because we want to buckle down this fall and take care of some financial things we have hanging over our head, maybe its because I am studying for my licensing exam to be a midwife and wondering what that season will look like or maybe its just because God wants us to better understand who He is in changing seasons.

I LOVE the season of life God has me in right now. I love being a mother, I love where we are living, I love that my husband has a job that provides for our needs and I love that everyday with a baby holds new and fun things! But I also feel like there are times I grow weary of the seasons changing so fast, just when I feel I am comfortable in the season we are in its time to adjust to a new one. I know that is God's way of keeping up dependant on Him, but somedays its more then I can handle! I am all for adventure but sometimes we need a break! I know I serve a God who is faithful and who never changes and that is where I rest my heart. Seasons and circumstances may always be changing but His faithfulness always remains!

I have been listening to this song alot lately and letting the reality of who God is seek into my soul.

"I am" by Nichole Nordeman

"Pencil marks on a wall, I wasn't always this tall,
You scattered some monsters from beneath my bed, You watched my team win,
You watched my team lose, You watched when my bicycle went down again,

And When I was weak unable to speak, still I could call You by name,
and I said “Elbow healer, Superhero, come if You can,” and You said “I am”

Only 16, life is so mean, what kind of curfew is at ten PM
You saw my mistakes, You watched my heart break
Heard when I swore I’d never love again

When I was weak, unable to speak, still I could call You by name,
and I said “Heart-ache Healer, Secret-keeper, be my Best Friend” and You said “I am”

You saw me wear white, by pale candlelight, I said forever to what lies ahead
two kids and a dream, with kids that can scream too much it might seem when it’s
two AM

When I am weak, unable to speak, still I will call You by name.
“Oh Shepherd, Savior, Pasture-maker, hold on to my hand,” and You say “I am.”

The winds of change, And circumstance blow in and all around
us so we find a foothold that’s familiar, And bless the moments that we feel You nearer
Life had begun, I was woven and spun,

You let the angels dance around the throne, who can say when,
But they’ll dance again, when I am free and finally headed home

I will be weak, unable to speak, still I will call You by name
“Creator, Maker, Life-sustainer, Comforter, Healer, My Redeemer,
Lord and King, Beginning and the End, I am, yes, I am.”


  1. I love your thoughts... I have similar ones almost 13 years into this mothering thing. You are doing good to understand that God is using your life and the seasons in it to call you to Himself instead of fighting the changes. That is hard to do! (And I love that song!)

  2. Great song ... thanks for sharing the words.

  3. I totally and completely understand! I have to admit that I am there, too! That song is one of my all time faves - and I cry almost every time I hear it! So good! Praying for you and the changing seasons! :)